As per September 2010 I picked up Chinese Martial Arts. I had to get off my arse and start losing weight, get in shape and most of all, spend my time elsewhere than the local wateringhole. Initially only Wushu, but I quickly added Tai Chi Chuan and a measure of Qi Gong to the package.
Now 6 months later I’m really only 3 months into training as demotivation and feelings of a winter depression struck me hard around Xmas time. I’m quite used to dealing with my short attentionspan (“Ow look, something new and shiny!”), so this came as no surprise however I wasn’t counting on the severity with which it hit me. Today, 14th March 2011 I’m slowly getting back up on my feet and picking up the pace as before. With Julian haven taken up Wushu as well I do visit the school every week and seeing him at it with his only 5 years of age, it helps me.
Some of you familiar with Chinese Martial Arts (MA) will probably know a lot of mental training is involved besides the physical part of the story. I have undertaken attempts as both a child and a young adult to train myself in MA, but sooner or later always fell victim to boredom and most of all, lack of selfconfidence and the fear of failure, 2 of my most ferocious inner demons. Which is why I decided to try and consider the mental aspect of Chinese MA a lot more seriously, even if it only were because I now firmly believe and understand physical performance will rise or fall with mental strength. As I feel I lack considerably in the latter department I have started the journey towards a healthier mind as of recent.
Last Saturday was the start of that journey by taking a personal training with my Sifu (teacher) thru talk, understanding, meditation and a Wushu cane session. It goes without saying I came home tired both physically and mentally. The following Sunday would be the start of doing meditation twice a day for 15 minutes.
If, like me, you have never tried to sit down, close your eyes and focus on breathing, and breathing only, you’ll probably understand how tough this can be, or maybe you haven’t a clue. Your demons won’t take long to appear and distract your thoughts, the trick is to return your focus immediately to breathing. So far, I’ve completed 2 meditation sessions alone and I do hope that clock ticking down your 15 minutes will go away some time soon.
In this hectic world it’s not easy for us people to truly relax and come to terms with our inner demons and their antics. I can only speak for myself when I say keep trying…








